#510 ; Goodbye
How many goodbyes have I said this year? Two. This year, I said goodbye to two of my grandparents. One of them is my mom's mom who I lost on 20 April 2018. One of them is my dad's dad who I lost on 9 June 2018. I bid farewell to two grandparents this year. I guess, the biggest impact that hit me so badly was my mom's mom. She is the first funeral that I have really attended and going through the whole process. When I think about it, it still makes my heart very sad. Going down for the past four days, it breaks my heart further. I still remember the day she was hospitalized. I took urgent PM leave to see her. I held her hands. I called ahMa. She wasn't doing well. Half side stroke, blood pressure very high. ahMa have to be in the hospital for a period of time. I remember nightly visiting her. Even just looking at her with all the pipes. I know deep down, I can't deal seeing ahMa like that and I can't bear to say goodbye. I know ahMa can hear me. I am thank