Love. Hope. Faith. Happiness.

The beauty lies inside. Hmm, I love roses. Why? B'coz they are so pretty. I don't dare to say every woman loves flowers  but I dare to say I love receiving flowers from my Bboy♥ . My Bboy♥ isn't that kind of romantic man but he sure knows how to make me love him and hate him. That's a DEFINITE  fact. My Bboy♥ is charming in his own ways. Just as long as he doesn't be a bugger. I am happy. Well well well. 我是个小女人，开开心心挨着我的男人。I won't deny that, b'coz I pretty much love my Bboy♥ more than words can say. But I also have to say, I swear I hate him a lot SOMETIMES. But what to do? We have to go through all shits to be what we are today. Not every love story is easy. Right at this moment, when I am saying that, I am reminiscing all the bittersweet memories with Bboy♥ . Being together is easy, but going through EVERYTHING  is tough. B'coz obstacles will obstruct you and you will just have to be stronger. Ok, main point of my post is saying how flowers or an

Another ranting post again. I know I shouldn't be ranting over all sorts of shit in the world, but I can't help myself. I guess, that's born in me. I have been in Dayre a lot, speaking about my little daily life but not once, I spoken any other thing. 8 more days to Winnie's birthday. Oh my! That's not what I want to rant about. I want to rant about being so stingy like crazy yet the urge to spend so badly! I don't know why but I have been spending a lot on skincare especially things on my face. No idea when the obsession starts but it begun. I am learning to cherish my skin more than I expect myself to. In fact, I want to be pretty. I guess, I hate being old. Old in sense of having wrinkles and every other thing. I doubt I am being influenced. Just having the feeling, I am undergoing alot of changes and I am not happy with it. I am 22 years old and I want to stay forever young but time stops no man, uh. Seriously, maybe I am thinking too much but I just neede

Karma 1. What was your first impression about your partner? Tall. Why this guy's chest so in front one? 2. What did you like or love about your partner? The way he will randomly give me a kiss, when he pout, when he uses his adorable voice, when he randomly buy a gift for me and many more... 3. How did the relationship start? I never thought I will fall in love with him and what's more, we are together for almost 6 years. In fact, it's all about giving myself faith to try falling in love with someone wholeheartedly despite a bad heartbreak previously. Well, by giving myself a chance in love makes me love this man more than anything else. ♥ 4. Do you still like what you loved about your partner and why? Yes, always have been. No matter how much we fight, how much argue, I still try my best to always see the good in him and love him for who he is. 5. Are you happy with the intimacy you share? Yes and No. Cos there is a certain of things that I don't shar

Patrick & Emily & They lived happily ever after...♥♥

She has the ability to either crush me or heal me if she wants to. I miss you, W. Yes, always have been since the day we last met. I know my memories with you can never ever fade away because you meant the world to me and always, you're the only best friend I have. I am not a person who have friends easily. Maybe due to the way I speak, my anti social style or what not. But still, despite how much we hardly speak, we hardly meet or any means to maintain our relationship, I value us. Us, because you taught me what's friendship, what's ok to love more than yourself. You are like my lover but in the sense of a friend, a best friend / soulmate which I can pour each and every single of my soul to. I know we have fought before, but I am always living in the memories of us. Us. Times when we watch movie together, times when you bought me to eat, times when you bought bubble tea for me to cheer me up, times when we are irreparable. You will never ever be replaced by anyone. Along m

 Happy Good Friday! ♥ Today is the day where Jesus was hanged on the cross. No idea why its a celebration when it's more of a sad day. But still, got a day of off day. Good enough. Been working hard enough so taking a break is good. Look forward to another 2 weeks for Labor Day. Yay! Hahaha. Good to have a short break. Been thinking alot lately over my life. Well it has its up and down. But still, everyday its stilm going on. Work can be total awesome, can be total shitty as well. But what make it all worthwhile is at least I learn something out of it. Topsy turvy life I have. Love life is OK. Because I love my boy and I know my boy loves me despite the shit we have sometimes. This is life. #Suckitup we have to quarrel we have to make out we have to love. That's how it is. Me? How am I? I am having bad skin. The urge to NOT scratch is uber hard. I don't know why. I am also trying to lose weight. Well, not easy but I can do this!! I am also catching up all my

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Because I miss my bboy, I am having this emoz bluez now. Maybe cos this sick in me is annoying. Better but suckish too cos I am sick. Sick always makes the worst in people. May I be better and not fall sick this bad again. ;D - Written 2 days ago at my Instagram I was sick so bad, sad so bad, everything is draining my life energy! ): So it's practically like , I am too ill to actually eat. I only drink water. Right now, I am still in the same condition but I totally got over it because I tell myself, I will DEFINITELY recover. Well, just wanna blog because I do miss blogger. They are ALSO always there when I am all sickish...

This will do good for me right now. Haven't been having good sleep lately due to the disrupting throat. I was complaining to my Bboy♥ how blue-ish I have been feeling. Blocked nose, blocked ear, hairy throat, blood in my throat and nose, appetite so small, seriously does all have to come?! Oh well, ain't I supposed to NOT complain? Yea, my Bboy♥ is also sick so we are two sick birds now. Too much of being sick makes me all emo-ish, blue-ish and sick-ish. Especially when your appetite is also fuck small suddenly. Oh my, one after another. It just makes me go all bonkers like I mentioned yesterday. I was bracing myself up, trying to be as comfortable as I can. But it's kinda impossible. B'coz you are sick. Totally have to classify myself as sick. Thank goodness for water. I have been blasting cups and cups of water till I know hot water is the best damn thing that works on me right now. Yeah, I know. Silly peanuts! Oh well. That's the best that is happening to m

The peace always gets me. B'coz I like to whine when I am sick. Yeah, you are right I am sick. Badly sick somemore. It's been awhile since I fall sick but it kinda sucks. Cos the throat is all itchy, the nose is all blocked, the left ear is also blocked, want to cough also cannot cough, sick until I feel like my body is breaking down. Too much work or because of cold? Or meds made it worse? I got no clues ): But they are really draining my body. Fuck it, I know. I have been eating like a very pitiful old woman. I can't even enjoy cakes, or even all my favorite things. So I decided, I must try to be THIS healthy sometimes in my life. I am fat, obese, so I want to make myself healthier. Yeah, my weight is shocking to many. As if I don't know. I also don't know why! Is it cos of my heavy bone or is it because my boobs are big? I don't know? Is just depressing to see many light weighted and pretty ladies in the world except myself. I am inferior, I don't den