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Basically I want to blog about how the event leading up to the arrival of Charlotte Toh.  Dr JJ is back on 16 December 2019. Hooray! I took medical leave (PM) on 16 December 2019. Was given hospitalisation leave from 16 Dec - 20 Dec 2019. I was just feeling super thankful that Dr JJ is back from his leave. He always make me at ease especially when I was hospitalized the week before due to food poisoning. What a nightmare it was. Dr JJ predicted a Christmas baby, told me about the upcoming visit will be on 21 Dec to check my cervix to see if I am dilated. Got our medicine, prepare to head home. So we went home, managed to convince the husband to let me work on 17 December 2019. In a way, it's also to see you again in 4 months times. Cos Jolin will be back on 17 Dec only. Didn't want to just be away. So back to office on 17 Dec, KFC with Jolin, ended my day well properly. I packed everything nicely.  So 17 Dec, 18 Dec, 19 Dec, I spent this three days with Barley. Mo...

Every Friday marks a new weeksary with my Dearest BabykinsToh. ♥   I don't know how accurate it is, but every Friday is just another week to celebrate. She has grown to be 2377g the last check I went on 23 November 2019. My sweet girl has grown so much from every visit, from a little sac to what she is now. The size of a honeydew. You're baking in my tummy and so grateful to be able to feel all your kicks during this process. Even PapaToh felt it. I decided to name BabyDaddy♥ and I into PapaToh and MamaToh since our Barley & Chloe also known us as Papa & Mama. (: Let's just not confuse things! 3 May 2019 - The day we met Dr KGH to confirm your existence. I am only 5 weeks pregnant with you. Welcome to our lives, BabykinsToh. 23 May 2019 - The day we met you again for our second visit with Dr KGH to meet you again after 20 days. 8 June 2019 - Seeing you grow further melt my heart so much. Every ultrasound seeing you just bring a smile to our face. A visit t...

Time to share a story. A story that I've been wanting to share but can't think of which platform to use. But I guess, I will use my first love, Blogger, to share. Before I start my story, let's begin from last year. I do not have regular menses. My menses is very irregular. The first time, it was due to Thyroid being too high but my Thyroid has since been back to normal. I've seen Chinese Doc and then I decided to see TKL @ Thomson. He is my colleague's brother in law. So HubbyLove♥ and I decided to try fixing my menses. We visited him quite abit for the year. I did ultrasounds, no medication. I even did a pelvis ultrasound to find out what's the course. So the doctor ask me to come down for my record review cos they found something. So they suspect it might be due to pregnancy? It might not, no idea. So I took half day off then off I went to the clinic. Pee on a pregnancy kit, negative. So, Dr TKL start telling me that they found a clot/sac, he doesn't...

We have hit our 2nd wedding yearsary together!  What an achievement.  Our first mini celebration was on 19 July 2019, wanted a staycation but sadly all the hotels are fully booked. Got free also cannot stay. Took a day off from work and celebrate our day! So we went to our nearest shopping Mall ; Punggol Waterway Point to watch Spiderman ; Far Away From Home. Our lunch was the awesome 汤师父, cos soup was 1 for 1! So we had two different kinds of soup. Delicious!  Movie was good. About 2hr plus then we went back home to catch a power nap before heading off to Bedok to have dinner and meet our BabyPrecious, Chloe. She was staying over Joie's house. So dinner was western for me whereas he had Assam Fish. Yum! Bad choice to have chosen black pepper chicken cos too spicy but overall, not bad for a choice tho.  Actual day on 21 July 2019! We had a long day but he bought me to Elemen to eat. Didn't quite expect him to bring us there to eat. Well, I have...

I used to blog a lot. But at times passes by, Many other platforms appear. But I know I will never forget my first love, Blogger. You've accompanied me thru many happiness & sadness. I guess, this is never ever goodbye. I still come by, to blog, to share my stories, To simply just express how I feel. I know I will come back, but I don't know when. The feeling I have for Blogger is special. An endless love. Blogger has always been there even in my darkest day. Till date, I believe it's already 13 years long. Longer than any relationship I have. Will be back. I will definitely be back. B'coz I just love to randomly pop by and say hi! (:

How many goodbyes have I said this year? Two. This year, I said goodbye to two of my grandparents. One of them is my mom's mom who I lost on 20 April 2018. One of them is my dad's dad who I lost on 9 June 2018. I bid farewell to two grandparents this year. I guess, the biggest impact that hit me so badly was my mom's mom. She is the first funeral that I have really attended and going through the whole process. When I think about it, it still makes my heart very sad. Going down for the past four days, it breaks my heart further. I still remember the day she was hospitalized. I took urgent PM leave to see her. I held her hands. I called ahMa. She wasn't doing well. Half side stroke, blood pressure very high. ahMa have to be in the hospital for a period of time. I remember nightly visiting her. Even just looking at her with all the pipes. I know deep down, I can't deal seeing ahMa like that and I can't bear to say goodbye. I know ahMa can hear me. I am thank...

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