I hope, I hope yet in the end I went all hopeless. Every year, I grow older. But I realized as each year pass by like that, my heart is always the same. It never once felt happy. Frankly speaking, never once have I ever felt happy on my birthday. It's that undescribleable feeling. It's definitely not happy. It's more of a sad-sour-crappy feeling. I don't have birthday party, cakes, balloons, flowers or any surprise birthday. Well, I know it sound really depressing. But I have to confess, I always admired those people having birthday parties, group of friends celebrating birthday for you and all the trunk loads of presents. As for me, I have none. I know I shouldn't be demanding much. But that feeling is totally unbearable. Seeing what others have yet you don't have. I always dreamt of my birthday having Winnie, Vivian, Laiyin, Desmond, Michelle, Nicholas, Jonathan, Denise there to be celebrating for me. Planning in surprise and making me the happiest woman o...