#487 ; Be firm, gal.

"Office politics" are the strategies that people play to gain advantage, personally or for a cause they support. The term often has a negative connotation, in that it refers to strategies people use to seek advantage at the expense of others or the greater good.
Ok. I think this rant should have come sooner or later. Is just a matter when am I going to do it anyway. I just need somewhere to vent, somewhere to release that shitty feeling inside. Yes, it's a complaining rant. I hate office politics yet in every company I am in, I have to face such shit and everyone is doing shit like that to survive. So since joining in my current company, it's endlessly non stop piece of crap that's going all around. This time round, I am complaining about people who do such mindless games just to get advantage for themselves and complaining about people who says "This is not my job." I have NEVER used this phrase in my life. Maybe I did but I stopped and do everything within my means even if I am not to paid to do it. I kept seeing people saying this phrase, and they just basically think they are to do what they are paid for. An extra mile to them is not of any use and completely pointless. So, today Ashley told me I print the wrong passport photo. First instinct is the selfish thinking. I copied her in the email, she should correct me upon seeing. Yes, she is fucking busy. But I am doing her job, doing her a favor, doing an extra mile for her. Yet I heard she was pissed off, upset. Instead of saying that, I accepted the blame, apologise cos I think that's the right thing to do. That's what I SHOULD really do. So I did that. I whatsapp her, apologise my actions for doing something that is wrong. I am feeling all the ups and downs but after thinking in the toilet, I realize she's ain't someone THAT important I am going to spend time being sad about. I made a mental note to myself, be extremely careful and thoughtful of whoever work you are doing. I realize, I have been a good girl, doing all I can to ensure orderly work done. Just that I am slow. Careless, yes I still am but I know I am doing all I can to improve.

Yes, I apologise, I am moving on. I am apologising face to face when I return to office on Tuesday. I want to apologise cos I know that is what I MUST do. I don't care if she is going or not going to ask me again in future. But I must say sorry. It's me. That's what is in my blood. I won't think how much she will backstab me behind my back but I am just going to do it, be it she cares or not. Is a mistake and I am not denying it. In fact, the point of this post is, I have staffs coming in coming out. & All of a sudden, I realize I miss what's the past used to be. Since I-have-no-idea-when, my office become so political with all the new people. I see myself being more and more determined to NOT say yes to all tasks. I am slowly rendering jobs to the right people. Take the newly hired secretary. I liked her. But sorry, after so many mishaps and her attitude, I stopped. I gave up. I gave myself this mental note as well, no matter anyone else after her who joined AMRO, I am NOT giving my positive attitude anymore . I am going to SIMPLY just be firm and asking them to find the right people to look for if ever they need anyone. Stop finding me for every single thing. I do need to be close to them unless they prove otherwise. For current staffs, I ain't got any other choices. Yes, my assistant. I am already tired of judging her. I accepted. For all that's old, whatever. Danielle here. Danielle there. No more. I help whatever I can. Or else I am not giving a damn shit. Sick of all the nonsense that I am helping. Being nice is not a good thing. Instead of being nice, they made use of your 'being nice' and everything is just you you you you you you. I am tired. Sick and tired for all this fucking shit. Continue all the office politics all they want. idgaf anymore. Colleagues will become friends if two parties want it. No point doing it one handed.

Ok. I am done ranting. Thank you for being my endless emotion punching bag. I will always love you. You are always there to let me vent whenever I need to. Whether it's my love life, my work life or whatever life, you are there! Words, the best things that I can use.

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