Love. Hope. Faith. Happiness.

Love, but not love. Friends but close friends. I like that type of feeling which you have someone to pour each emotions in you. Be it good, bad, explicit, clean or whatever, you can basically just share all the things that is inside you without boundary. You know that you love him or her more than a normal friend but less than a lover. How can I ever describe this feeling? The feelings intertwined in it feels so peaceful and you know being brutally honest is fine cos they will simply accept and do not judge you. They tell you the things that you know is right and it's never hurting at all. Because you know the level of closeness is so deep that the bond is never broken. You know whatever shared between are just exclusively to each other. Be it h/she , h/she has that ability to simply let you feel that you will always have someone there to speak of. I am not a person who can easily trust my whole heart. But as long as I trust the person wholeheartedly, you can feel me being re...

好きっていいなよ。

Take my hand and run.

You make me beautiful, because you love me from inside out. I am a very tired lady today. I slept close to 4am just to read one manga. It was highly addictive. I like how Lele and Eros advanced. Though the story is really slow, but I am captivated by the love story.  Although there are yaoi scenes between Angus and some guy, I don't quite care. The main two characters are the best. My holiday have passed by so quickly. Well, it was quite a so so holiday. Almost spend $100++ on a wallet but I am not going to buy one anytime soon. Because I have not reached my target. Life has been pretty okay for me. Just my jealous character just won't fuck off.  That's something I must kick off the habit. Last Friday was Vesak Day so it's kinda the final holiday till August. Oh manzxc. I spent my week with my Bboy♥ . It's the usual week with my  Bboy♥  beside me, that's good enough. Well his house is abit of messed up this week. Unsure why sudden twist of events. I am not ...

A slice of oreo cheesecake and a cup of cappuccino will do me good right now. Yes, I am thinking of food now. Comfort food. In fact, any type of food can actually tempted me right now. I don't think I am in a bad mood , just probably felt like eating without feeling fat. Yeah, I am the type who eat and gets fat easily. I want to have that kind of figure which no matter how you eat, you ain't fat. I admire people with such figures, you know! They are seriously super very power. Without fears of getting fat is awesome. I am thinking from Oreo Cheesecakes ,  You'll know oreo cheesecake are damn good! I love Bakerzin's Oreo Cheesecake  the most ! I think one day I want to bake this, cos it feels easy. My  Bboy♥ don't like cheese so maybe do it for myself to eat . WAHAHAHA self pleasure manzxc. To delicious yummy fries with fried fish fillet dipped with the special sauces, The totally so good  feeling! Damn, I am enjoying those yummy food in photos! Y...

Everyone has a first time. Virgin Try on this smexy red lipstick. No idea why I suddenly ask back my sister to let me try it. She told me she bought a red lipstick to be like Taylor Swift. So I tried. I can't help it but try the red lipstick. Yeah I told her its ugly, but deep down I think I look good. I actually feel good with that pretty red lipstick. I look different. I feel different as well. Is it because I am changing or do I wanna feel I am not the same or cos I have never been exposed to cosmetics. I have no idea. #RedLipstickisdefinitelyforBoldpeople. Am I one of them? Not sure. But I like the redness. It's beautiful. Probably certain things have the tendency to make you like it. I can't imagine me in makeup. I think no one can guess its me. Beautiful red, you make me feel bold. Bold, brave, beautiful. Not many can stand out in red lipstick, but do I stand out? I wonder.

Even if it is to save yourself, I forgive you. I went back to a place filled with memories recently. :') I am so happy everyone is doing fine. I miss the people there a lot. Words can never ever describe the emotions I have for that place. I didn't have the courage to go there at the beginning cos I know I don't dare because I might cry seeing those people. But after awhile, I made up my mind. I visited the two lovely ladies  that day. 15 May 2013, I guess it's almost three months since I left that place with a heavy heart. But as long as I know they are happy, they are good, I am more than contented. Words can never easily push away those emotions. I left because I was asked to leave, I left because that's the only choice to prevent anything. I know I hugged them instantly, or maybe even immediately . Because I love those ladies. I love the place. The feelings for that place is the first. I have never felt that kind of warmth, probably it's my first job  bu...

Eventually, I know I can smile after the crap in my life.

Friendship are formed. Just a week ago, it was the last day of one of my colleague, Jasmine. Well, I have to confess I miss her. I really do miss her voice, her hanging around my desk, her being always so lame and most importantly her presence in this office. It has been six days since her last day last Monday. Well, I have known her since the day I started work here, so it's about two months two weeks and three days since we worked together. Well, when I got interviewed here first. She was the one who looks really strict and asked me things about this job. She's fierce but didn't expect, she can be such a close mate to me. Had dinner with her before with Bboy♥ . She and another lady colleague of mine are the closest I known in this office. They spread the feeling of positive-ness in this office to me and most importantly, being there for me. We gossiped, we chatted, we camwhored, we had trunk loads of fun. I love both of them so much and they both left. I am missing th...

I l o v e r a i n b o w r o s e s .   T h e y a r e s o p r e t t y , s o m a g n i f i c e n t .   I f o n l y s o m e o n e c a n g i v e t h e m t o m e .

You have been crying since yesterday. Move on if you have to. Don't force yourself to love when it's over. Nothing has changed no matter how you have changed. You have already tried your utmost best to salvage. Time to really let it go, say goodbye forever. Yes, it hurts. It's going to eat you alive. But you know that you have to pull yourself up. Pull yourself up and bravely smile that everything will be fine. No one is perfect. There is always a point of time when everything fades off. This is how realistic the world has become. It's either you come out stronger or let your life die just like that. Life is fragile, appreciate and love what you have upon your hands. Yes, it's tough to just say goodbye to something that meant a lot. But what other choices do you have? You tried, nothing works at all. You simply done it all. You're the perfect person but sometimes maybe in others, it ain't perfect. Grow up from every obs...