#182 ; Go

Sometimes, I am feeling exactly that way.
I am very tired of all the fucking dramas in my life.
Boyfriend drama, parents drama, every single shit that is happening.
I am very tired to be facing all this shit all the time.
I don't mind giving up my relationship, my kinship, everything.
All of a sudden, I just want to feel happy, feel peaceful.
Not all of this bullshit crap that is happening.
I am stubborn, fuck yeah I am.
That's how I like and wants to be.
Yes, I hate certain things but I am TRYING to compromise so much.
Do you know how hard it is?
I must say, you depressed over my family.
You say I have selfish thinking,
You say I listen to people a lot,
You say I only care for myself.
Everything you said, each single word you said,
Can you ever feel the emotions I am having? 
You stress, how about me? You think I don't want?
I want life freed of worries but in this world, how is that even possible.
Yes, I know it hurts when one fine day, you leave me.
But if it's not meant to be, it's not meant to be.
I opened up myself recently, telling myself how tough life is.
Being able to lead my little life, doing right things,
That's the only motivation I have been telling myself.
Yes, I love to lead a carefree life. 
Who the fuck understand that part?
Having parents asking money when I know I don't wish to.
Having boyfriend asking for perfect girlfriend.
Seriously, why can't people let me be who I am and jolly well accept that?
Sadly no, I have to learn to start being a different me.
Since when my life become this crap? I have no idea.
All I know is, I am going to be happy.

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