#114 ; The Truth

First, I was like,


Lastly, after releasing everything from my heart. I was like,


Yeah, I am happy as hell. Probably cos I finally release that stone inside my heart. Said the truth though there are certainly some hidden stuffs. Oh well, I am going to explain , ya explain all my feelings. It definitely sucks to have such feelings. Oh well, that's why I say writing is the best. So ya , gotta get over it. So yea, I am going to blog about what I did last night.

I officially declared I am a permanent staff!
Yesterday, I told mom. Yes, I told her that I am a permanent staff. Oh well, the breaking news to me. I dragged since April 2012. Okay, wondering why I drag? I shall explain there later. Let me whine abit first. Yeah, I told mom. I guess it's time. I know it's a sooner or later, just ain't sure when its gonna be the right time. Well, I am a very scaredy cat person, I guess. That's what that's stopping me. Okay, let me explain why. Well, it's also about time. What's the point of hiding since forever?! I admit I feel like it's gonna kill me if I ever say. I will kinda lose everything though my Bboy♥ say that there's nothing I will lose. I never once told him the truth. What for? He's just gonna call me stupid. So ya. Well, probably cos the thought of when I tell mom about me earning $xxxx amount, she is gonna demand more from me, she won't buy me foods I like. Okay, I am stingy. I don't deny that, I always save on a lot of things! & I barely even spend. So ya. I think she will ask me start paying my stuffs, she is gonna be asking me to pay myself and whatever nonsense. That's one thing that always stopping me. Oh well, I admit I wanna give mom money, but I just kept thing "I am so effing brokeeeee." This is shit! Okay, call me selfish stingy sucker. I accept facts but I guess I am mommy's girl. Always enjoying the love she gives me, just have to be independent. It sucks, grrr. Oh whatever. I have to admit I suck. But I guess I finally said it, the stone inside my heart is finally cleared. At least, nothing to be hidden. Oh well, feeling a lot better right now.

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